Thursday, October 16, 2014

re-creating myself

We are going to move to another big city in Germany next month! I am super excited but also have some doubts regarding my profession.
If I am at work I really like it. I like to talk to the kids, they open up your eyes so often! You use a saying and the kids don´t understand that and it´s just so much fun what they answer. But of course my job is not only playing all the time. These days you have many problem children. And each parent thinks they can do your job better than you-self. I would love my job if I had less work with the parents and if there would be more male co-workers. Also I hate that I can only go in holidays when the day care is closed, which is in the main holidays. I get paid too less for so much responsibility! Don´t get me wrong, I like my job and I like to do it now, but I hardly can image myself still being a kindergarten-teacher in 20 years... 10 years...
So moving to another city opens new opportunities for me. I could change myself and re-create me. A brand new me. A brand new Jane.
I keep on saying "no 16 year old knows what to do for the rest of their lives" but apparently I am a decade older and still have no idea.
When I was a child I always wanted to become a flight attendant. I love flying, but only because it brings me to my holidays. I hate the lading. Through I am still flirting with that option.
After I finished my apprenticeship I wanted to study and have an office-job. Being well dressed all the time. This stresses me, too. I have ruined so many outfits at work.
Being ill at home today gave me the chance to google some jobs. Of course I have applied for my profession already, but if I would find an amazing job, I would totally go for that.
I am studying nutritions, and I would love to work as a dietician. But I am always so afraid of new things. Like I am already in doubt I could make that for a living. I am already in doubt!

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

DIY better-than-nutella

being ill at home really sucks, but that gives me time to update me blog!

It´s so cold outside lately, and I am freezing my feet off today. So I needed a warm and healthy lunch-snack!
I just had my selfmade nut-chocolate-spread I made the other day and oatmeal. With lots of health-benefits!
Here is the recipe for my spread, but instead of mixing hazelnuts and almonds, I used only hazelnuts this time. And I used half dark- / half milk-chocolate. Just look at that first photo! Doesn´t it look amazing?! And it tastes just as good as it looks like!
For your information, oatmeal as an oatmeal-lover that I am I know, the health benefits of it: Rolled oats have lots of dietary-fiber which regulates your poop and makes you feel full longer. Eating too less fiber can lead to digestive problems like costiveness. Eating too less fiber for a while can also promote bowel cancer, over-weight or diabetes.
Rolled oats have almost no sugar but lots of vitamines: tocopherol, B1, B2, B6, Biotin, pantothenic acid, niacin and folat! That means oatmeal helps with migraine and headaches, tiredness, lack of appetite and chapped lips.
I´m just an oatmeal lover!

Friday, October 10, 2014


I just noticed I never talked about my wedding. about what went wrong and stuff. I totally have to do soon!

distant relatives

Nobody can pick their family.
It was just today when I talked to a workmate about how she is not in touch with her sister and that I am not in touch with mine. It´s a really interesting subject. I know a lot of friends that never talk to their dads, siblings, grandparents, don´t know how many cousins they have etc. It´s actually sad. But I can relate, because I never talk to my sister. Although she has a son and I adore him, I never see her. If I want to see Louis I go to my parents, because he actually is at theirs always.
I have this friend that didnt even told her father she moved 200km, didnt gave him her new address nor telephone number.
You can not pick your family. I picked my hubby. But I did not picked his parents. I am not their choice of daughter-in-law, I know. They, or she, lets me know each time I see her. But I don´t care because I love my hubby even more with every day. 
But I have family that actually isn´t my family. I have my most favorite kids in world. We are related, but distant. They are my cousins cousins, but I love them even more. And I have my grandmothers sisters grandchild. I have no idea if I am related to them. But who cares. I pick the family I want. 
It´s a hard thing to get along with the people you are related to sometimes. 
Friends are the family you can chose. 
Childhood is a very long time. There is so much time for things to happen. And childhood is so important for your future life. Everything you are and will be has its roots in your childhood. You can not change the past, you can chose who´s in your future. You can pick the people that treat you. It´s not easy to cut out people but sometimes it´s the best ting. 
I was at my osteopath yesterday and she said, too, it´s your choice who´s in your life. 
I know people roll their eyes if someone says they had a bad childhood and that´s why they are how they are. But I thing this is such a true story. Of course, if you are a strong personality you can take more. You prob had a bad childhood but arent depressive. Then I am very happy for you. But some people aren´t that strong but sensitive and we have our roots in our childhood. We have to learn to life with it. 

Anyways talking of distant relatives, I was stalking my cousin of facebook and saw one of her cousins posts, clicked on the link and then stalked the whole family and found out, one of them is a big youtube star!
That leads me to thing the world is so tiny and we all are kinda related to everyone or know everyone through someone. I bet we know people that know people that know the queen of England!

The picture above is my grandparents wedding photo. Just look at the photo. Time has changed so much! 

This is my wedding:

Monday, October 6, 2014

pasta bake with courgettes

this is one super healthy and easy dish. I love gratins, but  usually they are with lots and lots of cheese and cheese-sauce but this one isnt. You wont drown your vitamins cheese!
This meal has no processed food and is salt and pepper only, so double positive!

you need for 4 people:
500g pasta
1 small canned tomatoes
1-2 courgettes
thumbnail big piece ginger
2-3 green onions
1 egg yolk
1 pack ricotta
50g parmesan
1 tsp tomato paste
 cold butter
salt, pepper

how to:
Boil the Pasta.
Meanwhile cut the courgettes in very small slices, without the core, and salt them very well. Pour off the canned tomatoes. Chop the green onions in rings and the ginger in tiny pieces.
Heat the oven (200°c air circulation).
Now mix the ricotta, egg yolk, parmesan, tomato paste, ginger and taste with salt and pepper. Then mix courgettes with onions. Add courgettes to ricotta and pasta with tomatoes in an oven-proofed dish. Let bake for 30 minutes until it´s well crispy. If you like cheese, you can of course add some cheese on top.